Last weekend, my mum got a message that a young man had jumped to his death from his unit. It was hard to stomach the videos. According to my mum, those videos were circulated on Whatsapp/Facebook and family of the deceased had plead for the public to stop sharing the articles. My mum is the best source of info these days. Hehe. Have I not tell you so, that disconnecting will help me to connect with people better? I think it’s best I shan’t go into greater details of his impulsive act. The least we could do is to respect the dead and his family.

Though, I can’t help but to wonder what went through his mind before he took the plunge. Couldn’t he talk about his problems? Did he even try? Isn’t there anyone who could coax him to step back? Was he bullied? What sort of problems he could have had that can’t be solved?

It is not my place to talk about this but it’s scary how people took to suicide as an easy way out. Students taking on their own lives after exit examinations. Gamblers found hanged in their rooms. Teenagers found dead with their wrists slit. God forbids any of that happens to us or our family and friends.

Life is not all about good grades and a high-post profession in the workforce. Life is not all about being rich. Life is supposed to be fun and memorable. Life is a cycle. You can’t forever be on top. We learn to get up after every fall.

Life to me, is too precious to waste it away. No matter how hard life gets, always remember the people around who cares and matters. If you think you have no one to talk to, please seek help from the counselors. They are around for these reason.

Most people would have said, it’s fated. But truth is, fate lies in our hands. Sure, we can’t choose our own life lessons and tests, but we are given the power to ask/pray to God.  Sometimes I too, almost lost it. We are no saint. But I’m grateful for He always guides me back to the path of faith.

Then again, if only life is so much simpler and less complicated.


Difference between Maghfirah (مغفرة) and ‘Afuw (عفو)?

What’s the difference between Maghfirah (مغفرة ) and ‘Afuw (عفو )?

Maghfirah: is for Allah to forgive you for the sin but the sin will still be registered on your book of deeds. Maghfirah is Allah’s forgiveness for your sin but on the Judgement Day it will be written on your record, Allah will ask you about it but HE won’t punish you because of it. Continue reading

The One on Selfies and OOTDs

Alia Abdullah


On Sunday, my friend Aida asked me what I think of the rising number of very young girls being “IG celebrities”. She defined an IG celebrity as “one who has amassed a huge following on the platform and one that has successfully grown a community of fans”. Aida’s timing was impeccable. I had just spoken to Mama about it merely an hour before. Ma shaa Allah.

My immediate response was that I find it worrying.

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t wish to shame anyone. Trust me when I say that I do not, in any way, look down on girls who constantly post OOTDs and selfies on their Instagram.

How can I, when I was once that girl too?

About a year ago, I made the decision to wear the hijab. Alhamdulillah, I had mustered the courage because I wanted to draw closer to Allah. Subhanallah, I can’t even begin…

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Kaffarah Dosa

Sakit Sebagai Kaffarah Dosa

Terdapat banyak hadith yang menerangkan bahawa kesakitan (ujian) dapat memadamkan kejahatan dan menghapuskan dosa.

Diriwayatkan dari Abu Hurairah adhiallahu ‘anh, bahawa Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda: Apabila Allah menghendaki kebaikan ke atas seseorang, Dia akan mengujinya dengan kesulitan.

Diriwayatkan juga dari Abu Hurairah radhiallahu ‘anh, bahawa Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda: Untuk setiap musibah, penyakit, keresahan, kesedihan atau kesakitan yg menimpa seorang Muslim – hatta luka yang disebabkan tertusuk duri – Allah akan menghapuskan dosa dosa nya.

Ibn Mas’ud radhiallahu ‘anh berkata: Aku menziarahi Rasulullah sewaktu Baginda sakit. Aku mengatakan, “Ya Rasulullah, engkau menghadapi demam yang kuat!” Nabi shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam menjawab, “Demamku adalah dua kali (kuatnya) daripada kamu.” Aku bertanya lagi, “Adakah kerana engkau mendapat dua kali ganjaran?” Jawab Baginda, “Benar. Tiada seorang Muslim yg ditimpa kesakitan – walaupun hanya luka yang disebabkan tertusuk duri – melainkan Allah akan menghapuskan dosa dosa nya disebabkan kesakitan itu, dan dosanya gugur seperti gugurnya dedaun dari sepohon pokok.”
Sabar sewaktu ditimpa musibah

Barangsiapa yang ditimpa penyakit (musibah), harus baginya bersabar kerana tiada ganjaran yang lebih baik daripada yang telah disediakan bagi mereka yang menahan musibah degan penuh sabar.

Suhaib bin Sinan radhiallahu ‘anh meriwayatkan, bahawa Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda: Betapa ajaibnya seorang Mu’min (orang yg beriman)! Kebaikan itu sentiasa bersamanya, tetapi ianya tidak berlaku pada orang lain kecuali kepada seorang Mu’min, apabila ia mendapat kebaikan, ia bersyukur kepada Allah dan memperoleh ganjaran, dan apabila ia ditimpa musibah, ia menahannya dengan penuh sabar lalu ia (juga) akan memperoleh ganjarannya.

Anas bin Malik radhiallahu ‘anh meriwayatkan: Aku mendengar Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda, “Allah berfirman: Apabila Aku menguji hambaKu dgn dua perkara yang paling dicintainya (iaitu kedua-dua matanya; penglihatannya) dan ia menahannya dengan penuh kesabaran, Aku akan memberikannya Syurga sebagai ganjaran (atas kesabarannya itu).”
Mengadu atas kesakitan

Adalah dibenarkan seseorang untuk mengadukan kesakitan yang dihadapi kepada doktor atau sahabatnya, asalkan ia tidak melakukannya untuk menyuarakan kemarahan (kepada Allah), telah dinyatakan sebelum ini bahawa Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda: “Sakitku adalah lebih berat daripada (sakit) dua org antara kamu.”

Mereka yang ditimpa sakit sepatutnya berterimakasih & memuji Allah, sebelum mengadu dan mengeluh atas sakit yg dihadapinya.

Ibn Mas’ud radhiallahu ‘anh berkata: Jika seorang hamba berterima kasih kepada Allah sebelum mengadukan kesakitannya, maka ia tidaklah dikira sebagai tidak sabar (dengan musibah). Bahkan ianya adalah dituntut.

Nabi Allah Yaaqub ‘alaihissalam berkata: Sesungguhnya hanyalah kepada Allah aku adukan kesusahan dan kesedihanku. (Yusuf: 86)

Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam berdoa: Ya Allah! Hanya padaMu ku adukan segala kelemahanku.

Allahu a’lam..

~ Fiqh as-Sunnah, Sayyid Sabiq
Diriwayatkan dari Abu Hurairah radhiallahu ‘anh, bahawa Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda: Seorang Mu’min adalah ibarat tanaman yang segar & mudah lentur, dari arah mana angin bertiup, ia akan menundukkan tanaman tersebut, tetapi apabila angin berhenti, ia akan berdiri tegak semula, (umpama seorang Mu’min yang apabila diuji dengan musibah untuk mengukuhkan iman dan hatinya, lalu ia tetap bersabar dan teguh), dan seorang yg jahat (kufur) adalah seperti pohon yang teguh dan tidak berganjak, hinggalah Allah menumbangkannya pada waktu yang Dia kehendaki.

– Source Quoted


Reclaim Your Heart

Reclaim Your Heart by Yasmin Mogahed.

About this book – Reclaim Your Heart is not just a self-help book. It is a manual about the journey of the heart in and out of the ocean of this life. It is a book about how to keep your heart from sinking to the depths of that ocean, and what to do when it does. It is a book about redemption, about hope, about renewal. Every heart can heal, and each moment is created to bring us closer to that transformative return. Reclaim Your Heart is about finding that moment when everything stops and suddenly looks different. It is about finding your own awakening. And then returning to the better, truer, and freer version of yourself. Many of us live our lives, entrapped by the same repeated patterns of heartbreak and disappointment. Many of us have no idea why this happens. Reclaim Your Heart is about freeing the heart from this slavery. It is about the journey in an out of life’s most deceptive traps. This book was written to awaken the heart and provide a new perspective on love, loss, happiness, and pain. Providing a manual of sorts, Reclaim Your Heart will teach readers how to live in this life without allowing life to own you. It is a manual of how to protect your most prized possession: the heart.

Thank you The Book Depository for I have received the book packed neat and clean. It might have taken a slightly longer time to reach Singapore from UK since TBD do not charge shipping cost but its worth the wait! I can’t wait to start reading. I’m done with erotic fictions (FSOG) – now I ‘m moving on to spiritual books. Some says a just little bit into the book and they are already feeling the pinch. Ouch.


The Heart-breaker

i didn’t write this but i thought this was an amazing reminder we could all benefit from. inshAllah. May Allah reward the person who wrote it and make their path to Jannah easy. Ameen. 

وَإِن مِّنكُمْ إِلَّا وَارِدُهَا كَانَ عَلَى رَبِّكَ حَتْمًا مَّقْضِيًّا
Not one of you but will pass over it: this is, with thy Lord, a Decree which must be accomplished. (Surah Maryam, verse 71)

Abu Sa’id al Khudri reported Allah’s Messenger as saying: “When the believers pass safely over (the bridge across) Hell, they will be stopped at a bridge between Hell and Paradise where they will retaliate against one another for the injustices done among them in the world, and when they are purified of all their sins, they will be admitted to Paradise. By Him in Whose hands the life of Muhammad is, everybody will recognize his dwelling in Paradise better than he recognizes his dwelling in this world.”(Sahih al-Bukhari, Fath Al-Bari)

Having now arrived at the terrifying bridge of Sirat, everything is pitch black except for the fire of hell blazing from underneath. You see people you love go – could be your mother, or perhaps your father… maybe it’s that strange guy you once gave salam to – he’s also here today! Your sweat dripping uncontrollably from the anxiety of it all, from the apprehension and the scare of falling and slipping. All you can think of is that If you fall then it’s all over. If you dont make it through, everything you’ve ever worked for will have perished. You thought before that this day would never come – yet here it is!

The tragedy of it all. The days that made our our lives were short, and today, we see the slides of our earlier existence back to haunt us. Will we succeed on today? Will we make it through this path?

There is no sun, no independent source of light besides the Fire of Hell itself. But the people that are crossing the bridge – they have light. Their very own light, coming from their bodies. We see the righteous ones fly by us. Some dart across like lightning, some fly like the wind, others gallop like a speeding horse. And still others; others are crawling on all fours. But the righteous ones, they make it. One of them is a person you recognize. It was that guy who spent his time memorizing the Quran while you were watching tv, but you remember him – his strength to fight his desires and determination to please Allah. Over there is a girl that you remember, who spent her weekends with her parents and relatives, struggling to please them.

يَوْمَ تَرَى الْمُؤْمِنِينَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَاتِ يَسْعَى نُورُهُم بَيْنَ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَبِأَيْمَانِهِم بُشْرَاكُمُ الْيَوْمَ جَنَّاتٌ تَجْرِي مِن تَحْتِهَا الْأَنْهَارُ خَالِدِينَ فِيهَا ذَلِكَ هُوَ الْفَوْزُ

One Day shalt thou see the believing men and the believing women- how their Light runs forward before them and by their right hands: (their greeting will be): “Good News for you this Day! Gardens beneath which flow rivers! to dwell therein for aye! This is indeed the highest Achievement!” (Surah Hadeed, verse 12)

But you chose to go out with your friends, driving around pointlessly, wanting to be seen and wanting to see what your eyes had no right to see. A life in ignorance was bliss. But that life is over.

Wasnt it was easy for you to pursue your desires, delay your salat, ignore charity, and act immoral? Remember how it was easy for you to hoarde money, to cheat, to deal with interest, and to flirt and to gossip? You loved buying new clothes, filling up your driveway with cars, your room with DVDs and music CDs, And you would have fought to keep it all. Back then, it never crossed your mind to spend these blessings for the sake of Allah.

Some invested for a day like this, and others chose to invest in a world that has now passed; a dark, dead and lonely world. All He asked was for you to be grateful, but you choose to forget Him. He offered you everthing, and you turned your backs on Him, eyes bedazzled with so many cheap desires.

يَا أَيُّهَا الْإِنسَانُ مَا غَرَّكَ بِرَبِّكَ الْكَرِيم الَّذِي خَلَقَكَ فَسَوَّاكَ فَعَدَلَكَ فِي أَيِّ صُورَةٍ مَّا شَاء رَكَّبَكَ كَلَّا بَلْ تُكَذِّبُونَ بِالدِّينِ

O man! What has seduced thee from thy Lord Most Beneficent? Him Who created thee. Fashioned thee in due proportion, and gave thee a just bias; In whatever Form He wills, does He put thee together. Nay, but ye deny the Judgment!!! (Surah al-Infitar, verses 6-9)

You are completely naked today! So are your sins, everything comes out today. You’ve brought absolutely nothing with you, and you are all alone. You wonder where your friends could be, where are your past friends on a day like this? If they were worth committing sins for, then how come they are not here to bear this heat for you?

يَوْمَ يَفِرُّ الْمَرْءُ مِنْ أَخِيه وَأُمِّهِ وَأَبِيه وَصَاحِبَتِهِ وَبَنِيهِ لِكُلِّ امْرِئٍ مِّنْهُمْ يَوْمَئِذٍ شَأْنٌ يُغْنِيهِ

That Day shall a man flee from his own brother, And from his mother and his father. And from his wife and his children. Each one of them, that day, will have enough concern (of his own) to make him indifferent to the others. (Surah ‘Abasa, 34-37).

Where is everyone? You feel scared, for all that you knew of, has indeed perished today, except your miserable soul.

You continue to be alone in the darkness, and your knowledge tells you that paradise is just over there, just across this path. Yet, it is so narrow. Paradise is very close, all you have to do is cross this path, and it will surely end. It is your single wish at this very moment, abiding in guilt and in sorrow, to be rescued from the anxiety. You soon see your brothers make it through, standing on the other side, and your cousins too! Knowing this, you want to be with them on that end. You remember how they used to remind you of prayer and to hold your tongue except in good, but you forever refused to listen out of sheer stuborness. You were always better than everyone. You were right and they were wrong. It seems that you thought wrong. Your sweat drips, and your eyes tear…

You turn to Allah desperately, “O Allah, let me make it to Paradise! O Allah, i implore you! By your grace, let me see the gates of Paradise! O Allah, they were only small mistakes!”


The Heartbreak of it All.

On that day, that moment, you would give up everyone to be rescued. You would be willing to trade in your wife, your husband, your children, your friends, and even you parents, just so that you could be with the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, in paradise. You didn’t choose him then but you now, you would. How come you weren’t from the people of his sunnah and guidance? You quickly remember that this moment is too profound for you and the fire is boiling. You have become desperate, and you don’t know what else to do.

The Heartbreak of it All.

Your turn has come, and you have walk on the sirat now.

Suddenly, it happens. The hooks come out from the Fires of Hell, and one digs into your flesh. You try desperately to hang onto the bridge, but the bridge is as sharp as a blade. Your hands begin to bleed, and blood trickles down your arms. But the hook will not let go; it only digs deeper.

Your hands are covered in blood. They slip, and just like that, it’s all over. Down you fall, farther and farther into the depths of Hell, screaming in fear and terror. You black out, but find no rest. You open your eyes, and see a fearsome, terrifying Angel standing before you, with the gates of Hell open before you. With a whimper, you motion that you dont belong here, that there must be some mistake. A single, choked syllable escapes your lips.


ذَلِكُم بِمَا كُنتُمْ تَفْرَحُونَ فِي الْأَرْضِ بِغَيْرِ الْحَقِّ وَبِمَا كُنتُمْ تَمْرَحُونَ ادْخُلُوا أَبْوَابَ جَهَنَّمَ خَالِدِينَ فِيهَا فَبِئْسَ مَثْوَى الْمُتَكَبِّرِينَ

“That is because you exulted in the land unjustly and because you behaved insolently. Enter the gates of hell to abide therein, evil then is the abode of the proud.”(Surah al-Ghaafir, 76-77)”


These are our moments, this is our life. Let us not take it for granted. Let us not despair from the mercy of Allah, and begin to redouble our efforts and our acts of woship with complete sincerity and regards to the One who can rescue us from such a horrifying event.

May Allah [SWT] grant us the abillity to cross the Sirat on the first instance, free of fear and free of terror. Ameen.